An AH-HA moment (Foolish)…
Posted on October 26, 2009
Despite the plans I had, my body had a different agenda. I think I was suffering from exhaustion…it was CRAZY! Resting in the bed all weekend, sleeping and watching movies, sometimes the line between real life and dreaming blurred. I ended up watching the movie “GoodFellas” staring Robert Deniro, Ray Liotta and Joe Pesci (yeah not your typical girlie movie) As I dozed in and out, my real life meshed with the scenes out of GoodFellas. I dreamt up a good looking strong Man who played my husband. He supposedly had it all together the right car, the right house, a face that would make you do any and everything, able to come to my rescue at a drop of a dime, and he cooked!! So what was the problem? After all that he was emotionally detached. He did things because it was the right thing to do, not because he ‘felt’ to do it…and I was foolish. I was foolish because I stayed around so long eating up all the things he did with out feeling.
Going over this dream again and again in my mind I came to the Ah-Ha moment. You can give me everything. BUT if I can’t fully have your heart it would never work! I’d end up being just another desperate house wife (another favorite show of mine)
After awaking from my dream I remembered Ashanti’s “Foolish” video was based on the GoodFellas movie. I used to so love this song and video… still do… take a look with me:
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